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| Hmmm.... how about I update you as to the specifics of my life.
1. I'm unemployed (which sucks balls) and I'm currently seeking employment elsewhere, but it conflicts with other plans. FUCKING LIFE!!!
2. I'm just putting the finishing touches on repairing a house since it got ruined by its former tenants.
3. Fuzz took me to the Flogging Molly concert on the 27th, it was a fucking incredible show. (Thank you again Mr. Fuzzle).
4. There is really not too much else, believe it or not, I'm not all that exciting of an individual as far as explaining my life and I apologize.
Anyway, just figured I'd let you all know I didn't die or fall off the face of planet Earth or anything (although, that would be really fucking cool, eh?). Hopefully you are all doing well... let me know what's going on 
Hasta luego amigos!
-Stevo
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| I've come across a very interesting song, but what makes it even
better... is the lady that sings it (Shakira) is hotter than hell in
this video... (See video at bottom of page)
2 thumbs up.
As for what's going on in my life, not a damn thing, just work work
work.... know what I mean. If anyone wants to do anything, feel
free to give me a jingle... I'm up for just about anything on a weekend.
Just so you know, this post was only made so you all knew I didn't just
fall off of the face of the Earth..... I just didn't want you to get
your hopes up 
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| Why is it that every time I have to fill that pickup truck with gas I feel like I'm bleeding from the asshole?
I have lots of stuff I could rant about, however, I lack the ambition
to express them at this time. So if you really wish to know, you
could... idk... ASK ME...  My # is 753-5382... as for times...
any time works, any time at all.
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| Through much contemplation (even though some/most of you will think I'm nuts)... I've come to a few conclusions about life.
I started off by asking myself a lot of why questions... why do I
feel so old even though I'm still young as I'm only 20 years of age...
why is it that although shocked that everything happens the way it has,
I'm not suprised (like when people say "I knew that was going to
happen")... and several others... these are just a few examples.
I started to think about it... and I've come to the conclusion, maybe
I'm NOT suprised because I DID know it was going to happen, I have seen
it in a past trial... I'm just shocked the outcome didn't change from
the last time I saw it. This would assure that (in your lifetime)
you learn there are a lot of things you can change, but some things are
inevitable and come to accept it.
This is all leading up to my feeling of age even though I'm young...
I've been told by many that even though I'm pretty light hearted and
extremely emotional (regardless of what any of you see), that I have an
old soul. I tend to believe them because I feel I am old and have
fucked up a lot along the way.... but then again, I've learned a lot
along the way. I can't explain how I know some of the things I
do, how I can get away with some stuff I say, how I can do some of the
stuff I do... I just know I've done them enough that I know what
works..... how to do it.... and the ultimate when to do it. Now
this isn't to say that I don't have my setbacks in any conversations or
interactions I have, but you have to admit, with a majority of people
that aren't my age, I'm actually pretty well liked. Part of
feeling old isn't being someone that has done so much that they have to
lecture everyone else with a red-hot cast-iron pointed snelled and ever
widening rod up the anus, but rather to realize that you can be an
individual, you can tell people what you've learned, use whatever
knowledge you have to get shit done in life, and then... loosen up and
have a little fun.
I know why I'm not happy, it's because I still make bad decisions to
this day, it's not a good thing, it's a learning experience.
However, unlike many, I will actually learn from it and grow from it
and feed off it until a euphoria occurs in my body and soul. I
have been happy, and I know how I got there once before, but now I must
work to get back there.
As time ebbs and flows, so does the mind... so does the soul...
The last thing I shall comment on is freedom of will... this is why you
must choose for yourself how it ends up.... the end is certain..... the
beginning is always blessed, but everything in between is up to you.
I am the Master of Past and Present in my life...
are you?
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| I'm alright... I swear to you... I'm alright.
isn't that why most of you come to my page... to see if I'm alright.
Just been a little busy.... a little paranoid.... a little
irrational.... a little hard on myself.... a little hard on others....
sleeping, but not sleeping well.... waking up to nightmares of stuff I
don't understand but feel that I should... longing for a connection
(with who or what is unknown to me)...
I'm very content with my life right now... just very confused.
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